MY FIVE STAGES OF GRIEVING (By Elizabeth Kubler-Ross).

Tapos na ako sa Denial stage, nung aminin ko sa sarili kong, oo, hindi siya kundi ikaw ang gusto ko, na ikaw ang tinitibok ng puso ko. Tapos na rin ako sa Anger stage, nung nagalit ako sa sarili ko at sa mga taong nakapaligid sa akin at sa’yo. Tapos na rin ako sa Bargaining stage nung kausapin ko ang Diyos para hilinging ibigay ka sa akin at hindi sa iba kahit ano pa man ang maging kapalit. Ngayon, nasa Depression stage ako, malungkot, pakiramdam ko nag-iisa ako, walang karamay, walang kakampi. Hindi alam ang gagawin, hindi alam ang daan na tatahakin. Nag-iisip ng mga pwedeng gawin, nag-iisip ng mga dapat at tamang gawin. Kailangan kita, pero bakit kahit anong gawin ko, wala ka?

Acceptance stage, ‘yan ang pinakahuli. Mamaya, bukas, sa isang araw, sa isang linggo, kung kailan, ‘di ko ‘yan masasabi. Ito ang pinakadulo, ito ang katapusan. Mapapanatag na ba ako o patuloy pa ring maguguluhan? Simple lang naman ang kailangan kong gawin eh, ang matanggap kong andyan ka lang naghihintay sa akin o ang katotohanang hindi ka para sa akin.

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105 REASONS WHY EVERYONE SHOULD LOVE A NURSE.

  1. Nurses are regularly voted the most trusting of professions – and for good reason.
  2. Somehow, they find ways to make their scrubs look so stylish.
  3. They’re tough and nurturing at the same time.
  4. They know how much we weigh but won’t tell a soul.
  5. They break the rules for their patients everyone once in a while.
  6. They’re our therapists, parents and drill sergeants rolled up in one.
  7. Bedside manner is their specialty.
  8. When we’re discharged, they shed tears of joy and sadness.
  9. They’re experts at dishing out constructive criticism that actually makes us want to do the right thing.
  10. They bring color (personality) to the white walls of a cold medical facility.
  11. Sometimes they let us cheer them up.
  12. They’ll take only so much crap before they get a demanding patient in line (nicely, of course).
  13. They’ve seen it all and therefore keep their heads in difficult moments.
  14. They nurse our children back to health when we can’t.
  15. We may not want to hear everything they have to say, but they’re always right.
  16. They sneak treats into our room when they’re not supposed to.
  17. They’re human and we know it, yet they somehow manage to be our superheroes.
  18. They nurture our family members as if they were their own.
  19. They struggle through their own pains yet still do their jobs like no other.
  20. They get those doctors in check when no one else can.
  21. From the moment they meet us, they remember our names.
  22. They literally run the unit — everyone else can just get out the way.
  23. They’re the only ones who can make chipped ice taste like a sweet popsicle.
  24. When the bed is completely uncomfortable, they hit one button and it feels like pillowy clouds.
  25. Having to use the bathroom in a hard, plastic bedpan seems easy when they help us.
  26. Even though they complain when we press the buzzer for them, we know they want to take care of us anyway.
  27. While they’re late night checks can be annoying, they secretly make us feel comforted.
  28. They’re the only ones besides our mothers who will fluff our pillows, prop up our legs, bring us water and change the channel for us.
  29. They have that special gift of talking the physical therapist into being easy on us.
  30. Though they may not admit it, sometimes we steal their hearts.
  31. When no one else will sit and listen to our cockamamie stories, they will humor us.
  32. They say they won’t baby us, but they do anyway.
  33. For some reason, when they draw our blood or give us shots, it just doesn’t hurt.
  34. They’re so lighthearted that sometimes we forget we’re in a hospital.
  35. They grieve patient losses as much as the family does.
  36. They always say that they have a favorite family member who looks or acts just like us.
  37. Even when they’re off the clock, they’re nursing friends and family back to health.
  38. They watch over us when we’re sleeping.
  39. They leave all of that technical mumbo jumbo at the door.
  40. If they could, they would take our pain for us.
  41. They make their jobs look so easy.
  42. They pray for our well being when they leave their shifts.
  43. When we’re on the verge of panic, they know how to keep us calm.
  44. Even when they don’t feel good, they’re not too sick to care for us.
  45. They always have a story to relate to what we’re going through.
  46. There’s always one nearby to give us the comfort we need.
  47. Even in our worst times, they make us feel our best.
  48. It takes a lot to truly make them mad at us.
  49. They don’t hesitate to call our family members "Uncle" and "Grandmama" just like we do.
  50. A reassuring hand squeeze from them is sometimes all the medicine we need.

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'I'M NOT YOUR FVCKING MOMMY!' — Best scene of this movie (Orphan).

'I'M NOT YOUR FVCKING MOMMY!' — Best scene of this movie (Orphan).

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Naisip ko lang, ako pala yung palaging nagmamakaawang mahalin ako. Ako yung palaging nangangarap na sana dumating yung panahon na mamahalin niya rin ako. Ako yung palaging nag-aasam na sana dumating yung araw na mapapasakanya ako. Ako yung nagmamahal, pero hindi naman minamahal pabalik.

Sa totoo lang, hinihintay ko yung panahon na ako naman yung pipiliin, na ako naman yung mamahalin. Yung ako ang papangarapin, yung ako ang aasamin. At higit sa lahat, yung siya muna ang magmamahal sa akin bago ko siya mahalin pabalik.

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Landslide - Glee Version (Holly Holiday, Santana Lopez & Brittany Pierce)

“Well, I’ve been afraid of changin’, ‘cause I’ve built my life around you.” 

[TMI Sunday]

— I had 4 girlfriends and only 1 the-other-way-around, if you know what I mean. 

— 1st gf (1st year student that time) and I (Grade 6 student that time), we were caught by my class adviser kissing (‘cause it’s our monthsary that day) on the stairs.

— I was suspended for 1 day for saying bad words when I was in Grade 5.


“Well, I’ve been afraid of changin’, ‘cause I’ve built my life around you.” — Landslide
“I’m angry because I have all of these feelings, feelings for you, that I’m afraid of dealing with, because I’m afraid of dealing with the consequences.” — Santana
“I want to be with you. But I’m afraid of the talks and the looks, I mean you know what happened to Kurt at this school.” — Santana
“I’m so afraid of what everyone will say behind my back. Still, I have to accept that I love you. I love you and I don’t want to be with Sam or Finn or any of those other guys. I just want you. Please say you love me back. Please.” — Santana

Santana Lopez. Glee’s character na alam nating, bitch, strong personality, stand-out, outspoken etc. This is Santana’s look of love. I can feel her, I can totally relate to her, not because pareho kami ng personality pero dahil sa pareho kami ng pinagdadaanan. Look at those eyes habang pinagmamasdan niya si Brittany. The look of someone asking for love. The look that says, ‘I just want to love and be loved in return’. Tingin na nagsasabing, 'Andito lang ako, kailangan mo lang imulat ang mga mata mo'.

Well, I’ve been afraid of changin’, ‘cause I’ve built my life around you.” — Landslide

I’m angry because I have all of these feelings, feelings for you, that I’m afraid of dealing with, because I’m afraid of dealing with the consequences. — Santana

I want to be with you. But I’m afraid of the talks and the looks, I mean you know what happened to Kurt at this school.” — Santana

I’m so afraid of what everyone will say behind my back. Still, I have to accept that I love you. I love you and I don’t want to be with Sam or Finn or any of those other guys. I just want you. Please say you love me back. Please.” — Santana

Santana Lopez. Glee’s character na alam nating, bitch, strong personality, stand-out, outspoken etc. This is Santana’s look of love. I can feel her, I can totally relate to her, not because pareho kami ng personality pero dahil sa pareho kami ng pinagdadaanan. Look at those eyes habang pinagmamasdan niya si Brittany. The look of someone asking for love. The look that says, ‘I just want to love and be loved in return’. Tingin na nagsasabing, 'Andito lang ako, kailangan mo lang imulat ang mga mata mo'.

do-it-kid:

Willie Revillame said, “Lea Salonga… Ano ba ang ginawa nyo para sa mga Pilipino?” This man doesn’t know what he’s talking about. 

He also said, “Aiza Seguerra, maliit ka pa lang, nagta-trabaho ka na.”

“Agot Isidro, wala ka namang anak…”

“Bianca Gonzales… may natulungan na ba kayo?”

Willie is on a downward spiral and now he’s talking about personal issues. That most hurtful thing, I guess that he said was the one for Agot Isidro because it is very frustrating not to have a baby even if they want to, and whatever Willie said was uncalled for. 

Again, this man, he doesn’t know what he’s talking about. S.R.S.L.Y.

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Sa dami ng tao sa mundo, hindi naman mahirap humanap ng taong pwedeng mahalin. Alam mo kung ano yung mahirap hanapin? Yung deserving.

THOUGHTS ABOUT MASOCHISM (LOVE ISSUES).

Masochism. As defined by Dictionary.com: 'Gratification gained from pain, deprivation, degradation, etc., inflicted or imposed on oneself. Not just physically but also emotionally. Diba nga sabi nila, mas masakit ang latay sa kalooban kesa sa panlabas na kaanyuan. Ito yung mga taong, OK na OK lang sa kanila ang nasasaktan, mahal nila, kaya kahit anong sakit pa man ‘yun, tatanggapin nila. Pero bakit nga ba may mga taong OK lang sa kanila ang masaktan sila basta para naman ‘yun sa taong minamahal nila? ‘Yun bang kahit harap-harapan na ang pananakit sa kanila, palaging sagot, 'OK lang, mahal ko eh'. Kaakibat ng pagiging masokista ang pagiging martir, manhis at ang pagiging tanga. Bakit? Ikaw ba naman ang saktan ng paulit-ulit, pero para sa’yo wala lang at yung bang para kang walang nararamdaman at nakikita hindi ba’t martir, manhid at tanga ka? 3 bagay pero pinagsama-sama sa iisang tawag, ang pagiging masokista. Hindi pansin ang sakit, hindi pansin ang hirap, ang mahalaga ‘wag lang mawala yung taong minamahal niya. Bakit nga ba may mga taong iniinda ang sakit, kapalit ng pagmamahal kahit alam niyang wala na itong patutunguhan o pupuntahan? Bakit nga ba may mga taong hindi kayang maging matapang sa nararamdaman nila at ipaglaban ang karapatan nila laban sa pagsasamantala ng iba? 

Sa totoo lang, hindi simbolo ng katapangan ang pagtitiis ng sakit, hindi dahil sa tinitikis mo ang isang bagay o iniinda mo, masasabi mong matapang ka na para sa nararamdaman mo. Sinasaktan ka na, pero tinitiis mong lahat ng ‘yun dahil sa isang rason, 'Mahal ko siya'. Nakakahiya mang sabihin, pero ganito rin ako minsan. Kahit alam kong mali, kahit alam kong hindi tama, kahit alam kong sobrang nasasaktan na ako, wala lang para sa akin ang lahat ng ‘yun, 'Mahal ko kasi siya'. Tingnan mo nga naman, sa isang salita lang, lahat ng sakit nawawala. Nasabi kong sa pagiging masokista ikaw ay nagiging martir, manhid at tanga, pero hindi ko naisip na kaya lang siguro ganun kasi nagmamahal lang tayo ng totoo hindi ba? Oo nga’t pwede nating sabihing mali ang pagiging masokista, pero pagdating sa pagmamahal naman diba, lahat nagiging tama? Lahat nawawala, lahat hindi mo na pinapansin, lahat hindi na mahalaga. Hindi ko tinalakay dito ang physical pain gaya ng alam ng marami sa atin pagdating sa issue ng pagiging masokista. Ano nga ba ang mas masakit yung sugat na pwedeng gumaling sa gamot o yung sugat sa pusong pagpapatawad at sa paglipas lang ng panahon hihilom? Oo nga’t dapat tayong maging matapang at ipaglaban ang isang bagay na mahalaga sa atin, pero kung alam mong mali na at hindi na tama ipapagpatuloy mo pa rin ba kahit alam mong nasasaktan ka na ng paulit-ulit? Masokista, katangiang nagpapatunay ng totoong pagmamahal mo sa isang tao pero kaakibat nun ang pagiging hangal sa sa ginagawa sayo ng taong sinasabi mong 'OK lang kasi mahal ko'.

TOP 15 PLEASURE SNACKS OF ALL TIME.

— From the amateurdreamer's POV:

  • Lays
  • Chupa Chups
  • Nerds
  • Doritos
  • Jelly Belly
  • Quaker Oats Oatmeal Cookie
  • Oreo with Milk
  • Piattos
  • Pringles
  • Cake (Red Ribbon)
  • Snickers
  • Skittles
  • Nutella with Bread
  • Toblerone
  • Lays